This week, I recovered from a bad flu. I don’t want to bring sickness to the school. Even though I had the flu and minor injuries, I am not happy with my mental toughness. I am mentally weak. I have been avoiding the sparring class and the throw class. What is it? Fear of competition? Fear of total committment? Fear of meeting new people? Fear of losing? I am embarrassed but it is the truth.
Also, I am playing the belt game. When am I getting the next stripe? I got to stop this. I did that with judo. It created a lot of anxiety and negativity. “Oh, I should be promoted, I won such and such tournament.” The truth is a belt is nothing more than color, cotton, and thread. The belt is the representation of your mental knowledge. So, do I really want to be falsely promote? No, I don’t. When the professor’s are ready, they will promote me or give me the stripe that I deserve. I am in a rush to no where.
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